This cold and gray has me so depressed . . . it happens every winter. Especially living in a basement with tiny windows and getting very little sunlight. Anyone else get the wintertime blues?
I'm amazed at the speed with which life is speeding by. It seems that raising kids is a slow process sometimes, but when I look back, I can't believe so much time has passed. The days are long, but the years are short. I have realized I am not taking full advantage and that I need to slow down and take time to enjoy life more, where my kids are concerned. It seems that every day is full of "hurry up and do this" and "go here" that our lives are a blur. What I want is to spend more time talking to them and playing with them and less time rushing them around and doing chores and everything else that gets in the way. I need to play Scrabble with Nathaniel. I have finally gotten Bradley to let me start teaching him to read, and I love that time together. Lindsey is so much fun to just watch and listen to -- she's talking non-stop and singing even more. I love my kids and love every second with them. I have to teach myself to relax and just be with them more. 
Chris and I celebrated our 12th wedding anniversary back in December. I can't believe it! (That picture -- good grief! I was thin!) In my mind I am still that immature kid I used to be; it startles me some days to wake up and realize I am a 33 year old mother of 3 children! Chris and I will just be sitting there and ask each other, "Where did these kids come from?" As if to say, surely we are not parents! We still feel like 16 year olds cruising around in the VW bug he's had forever. But I wouldn't trade it (my life, not the bug!) for anything. I am so thankful for my husband and children, my greatest blessings. I will never be worthy of such amazing gifts.
Thanks for indulging my randomness.
3 comments:
I liked what you were talking about re: taking time to SLOW down. I just got an email from a woman I took a religion class from at BYU like five years ago. She amazed me: I think she had ten children, had her Ph.D., had authored books and articles, etc. Wow, right? I sent her an email on Sunday to ask her how she did it all. One of her tidbits that she wrote back to me was that life is full of seasons and that one of her pet peeves is when moms talk about everything they're missing or what they COULD be doing (instead of being at home in the "drudgery," so to speak, of their kids), and consequently, they miss out on the important and lovely stuff right then. That is exactly how I feel (how precious and important this time is). Before I know it, it will be gone, and I'm loving it so much! I guess we just need to remind ourselves of that every now and then. I am sure you are a fantastic mom, and I bet your family wonders if they'll ever be worthy of you, either. I'd wonder that if I were them.
p.s. So so so SOOO ready for Spring, too!
I LOVE your random thoughts. I love to read about you. It gives me more insight as to why you're so wonderful It's nice to know I'm not the only one who feels rushed and that I need to enjoy the moment. You're so much fun!
I am so glad you decided to blog. What a beautiful post. It is fun to see a young and in love picture of you both.
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